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God, i see ur light. - daily tweet Feb 8-9

  • Feb. 9th, 2010 at 4:28 PM
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9/2/2010
God, i see ur light.^got bonus from QRRS, just in time to let me have a good time with my baby&his mom in the coming lunar Spring festival, near noon. in office busy with download some small games for baby, who didn't enjoy pc games since my departing from his mom's house, tried on my notebook to ensure their working. tried to upgrade my wap's bonus pack via online office of the telcom, but failed, even i found lots of new ways to get my mobile service's statistic via wap or its portal online. listening to the Christian radio&greatly enchanted by a preach by a Taiwanese priest online. with the spirit i elaborated yesterday's tweet&posted it, otherwise i wouldn't post it for too short to recall. also tried a new google chrome's extension to connect to my qq account, a monopoly Chinese mainstream im community, and posted recent posts delayed so far for web qq just refused my logon. visit telcom's office to recharge ￥100, with which got an award of a set of bowls, just fine gift fit for my next visit to baby's mom's house within this week, when i will shower in the nearby public bathroom of her house, and updating baby's computer with some games, or appeasing him with holiday's gifts, like crackers or fireworks. public bathroom in QRRS area can harm me without my girl zhou's companion, for too many dogs' properties in service here and there around sipping the still lucrative business of the enterprise, QRRS.

the canteen of the dorms out of service, so dined out. after returned dorm, God soon let me join the Internet cafe i haunted the day before yesterday in the aim to meet my girl zhou. but she was not there. i tried to refine my qq profile with its client, which reportedly steals user's data so i never use on my pc, but ready on the cafe's pc. baby's mom greeted me via it online. i finally got binding her qq group she lent to me with one of my qq alumni there. some young beasts there heavily biting, one of them stared at me when i look back. i retreated after got satisfied with my effort there. in dorm, listened music after logged.

8/2/2010
wired with gospel via radio online. God shines me with new assurance.^last night slept after 10pm, after surfed via wap. this morning woke up as normal.likely snowed last night. in office continued to catalog cliparts assets. returned dorm after lunched in office. returned office after 2:40pm, tried radio online. dined outside for the canteen out of service. a tall girl, looks like my girl zhou, lingered awhile gazing me far on the other side of QRRS main road, outside of the restaurant, while i waiting for serving dishes, with 2 male pals. lingered in dorm all night. felt my girl zhou longing for me, but the insulting scene on last Friday night still hurts me, God pacified me that's not my girl zhou. buzzed baby son for the blessing, arranged last shower in end of lunar 2009 with baby's mom, emakingir, in the public bathroom near her house, to temporarily porting in her house, also a gathering with my baby son routinely.

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my Sun kills, my God listening.

  • Feb. 6th, 2010 at 4:22 PM
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7/2/2010
a snowing night.^last night my cellphone called me twice after i went to bed. i was remind the call of my secod wife, from Japanese Royal, Masheng. God sees our important moment in my growing Royal of China. Masheng, u know my girl zhou is a greatly merited girl, she is considerate and very noble. pl rid me worry of dirts upon her as well as my Royal. u know the saint and purity of my Royal, u know the glory untouchable of God and his son's family in holy. u just my claim of my 3rd wife, my girl zhou's being my long time searched and waited Crowned Qreens of China. u know what my vision of my family life and the merits my beloved have. attend and kill dirts around my girl zhou, Masheng, u listen to me.

6/2/2010
a bright day.^late sleep, got up till 12:34pm. dined out with beef pies and mutton soup near my office. its a starling bright day, i even sweated after the lunch. returned dorm&logged expense&events of recent. for the sunny, haunted outside again. join the Internet cafe, "New Millennium", in the aim to meet my girl zhou. a girl with an cheap ugly large ear ring there chat via qq, a Chinese main stream im, looks like my girl. felt sad upon the phenomena of my girl's not engaged with me. in night listening music via cellphone most of night, felt sad on bed. when i stood up&walked, the idea that my girl left QRRS and managed to support our coming life with her own startup struke me. i also felt the coldness among clerks in the local church, so i will pray to my God, my father, my second wife, my Sun, Masheng more, like what i did before. its all day a bright day.

5/2/2010
invite high rank to introduce me to my girl in QRRS' bachelor's treat but she absent.^dreamed with baby's mom, emakingir, visiting my senior middle school alumni, playing Majiang till my hands dirted. then i left&woke up. in office refined family new accounts with amplify.com, till 12:20pm, returned to dorm to avoid dirts in office, where the 2 dogs first time lunch with fast food from the vendor i subscribed. returned to office at 2:50pm, busy with claim family accounts with box.net, whose net disk service offers vanity url, a favortie of mine. settled after 5pm. sorted bookmarks&cared download. the company hosts a party for bachelor, and i was invited, so head on. its more than several years since last time i haunted into the factory, where the newly built canteen put into service. in the meeting i talked to the Zhou, a high rank in QRRS, to let him introduce me to my girl zhou, but he asserted my girl don't present, and said my girl zhou engaged. after left the meeting, i walked alone the main road of QRRS to dorm, half way there is a man wild and bare his half chest and in fury while a tall girl very likes my girl zhou tried to pacify the man. i gazed awhile, doubting if my girl there, then left before the beast yelled to show aggressive. in dorm praying God his gift for me, my Royal of China, never changes, the saint and purity of my Queens, my girls, everbright in deepest sky. called baby&visit nearby church as God lets.

Posted via email from birdous, angels at homeland. 天下羽帝。

dogs plotted to trap me.

  • Feb. 3rd, 2010 at 4:42 PM
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3/2/2010
dogs plotted to trap me.^sorted google browser, chrome, and its extensions by disabled some less useful, trying to fix its large ram comsuming. claimed family namespace, warozhu, with google groups after done it with plaxo groups yesterday. the monitor, a hard core gay&esp. cheap in essential&criminal in mindset, espionaged me closer these days, left lately at noon and returned early around 12:30pm when i listening a Japanese album from google China music portal as usual. the neighbor dogs, ie, the evil once colleagues&dying for its own sin&aimlessness after it was seperated from harm me any more after departmental restructure, including previous departmental director in family name Huang, his driver, a gay in family name Wang&local hooligan's friend, via who the Huang attempted to pay to hurt me, soon gathered in their office which tentatively arranged surrounding my office, &complained my music noisy, the monitor demanded lower the volumn, but i just ignored it. then the shits bumped to close my notebook. i pushed on his chest when he return to me while i watching outside the window, the 2 gays in office both encharged and prepared to fist. the facing evil unplugged the power line. i ignored the rest babbles while trying to resume my computer, till found the power down by the facing dog. they all r dead, and thirsty for death match, like ghost entangling the live. the all things just a plot attempting to trap me and humilate me in violence, with which they want to disable me once and forever. God sees, i  never kill men with my own knife, they just don't deserve.

left office after 2:30pm. reviewed my situation in dorm. heart weighten for my missing girl zhou. dined after 4:30pm, then went to the cross way to greet my girl. i didn't wait as long as usual, for i don't put insurance on my girl's presence after knowing my waiting from the spying environment all around. when i on way to dorm, i saw a girl in long white coat and white boots holding a middle aged woman just disappearing crossing the gate of the residential area my girl's house locates. i'm sure that's my girl, my girl zhou who arranged to assure me our love. bought food before returned dorm. in dorm, in high mood of blessing&buzzed baby son. dined again in the restaurant near the cross road after roamed some time indoor. God, today really a bright day!

2/2/2010
looked out but in vain.^woke up early. went to office at once, in the rush time of QRRS. refined family blogger blogs, ie. posting format, sidebar widgets, etc. the monitor these days closely spying, left to lunch lately after 12:15pm. sorted stuff&tried some new google browser, chrome's extensions in afternoon. my chrome likely infected, ill behaves and lagging heavily. dog in China surveillance broke into my os in every chance. left office around 4:30pm, went to receive my girl zhou but don't meet. God let me follow a girl active in the local church, lingered there more than an hour just for meet up the girl who smaller than my girl zhou. in dorm listened music, then read ebook on sex.

1/2/2010
a mere busy day.^last night the newly installed lamp in corridor leaks lots of lights into my room&let me restless awhile, till i got up&turned off it about near 12am. woke up normal around 7:25am, even i felt delayed on bed for some time. in office verified effect of static pages of family profiles added last weekends onto family blogs on blogger&wordpress, posted recent tweets, let download, then launched to correct baby son, warrenzh, the Hope of China, the God of Universe, his linkbook hosted on google docs and zoho office. its a long time nail& filed this afternoon, such a relief! then sorted bookmarks. since then China surveillance blocked my access to google search, docs and goo.gl's shorten url service. i tried lots of ways but all failed. later catalog picture assets from web via a asset management software i got from backup on baby's desktop, &backup a dvd. the facing evil snorted in late afternoon among my heavy load of tasks, i praying God to see how the dog had been vomiting&pervise&abnormal, how evil the enemy of my Empire is&deserves slaughter. its bright in the morning, but gloomy all afternoon. i had to put on my coat in office amid against tomb chill from gays, ie., the dead. left office around 4:30pm&dinned in canteen. crack sunflower seeds in dorm to kill time. my financial book had deficit more than ￥1300, the office dogs babbled about changes in the company's bonus policy, tried to let me worry about money. God, i see u let me walk through to ever-brighter, the glory none ever seen. roamed outside near 7pm, the chill freezed my ears. bought instant noodles&eggs. read sex educational ebook lately to 10:30pm.
 
31/1/2010
learing day.^slept sound till after 10am woke up. lunched outside, then join office to elaborate static pages hosted on blogger&wordpress, the most prominent blog portals in the world. also posted recent tweets. narrowly done near 5pm. dined in canteen of QRRS dorms. Its all day a bright day. listened preach in nearby church, expressed thanks to the priest after most believers left, a beautiful girl lingered there, likely active among those followers, but i doubting if my girl zhou taller than her, but however, i felt God's shine over us. buzzed baby but he playing chess with his mom&don't talk with me. reviewed my love&saw God's shine when staying in dorm all the rest of night.

Posted via email from birdous, angels at homeland. 天下羽帝。

insane&ill peers gawked into their problems upon me.

  • Jan. 26th, 2010 at 5:42 PM
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dreamed lots of alumni of middle school&campus. also dreamed worked with some QRRS colleagues. after woke up, dog's curse let me anxious awhile about my potent. since last night when i dined in the restaurant the evil against me on the topic: a couple whose family life turned a nightmare there asked another male friend to try to dissolve their family's coldness of dying hearts. a grey man once lived in QRRS dorm but a blue collar worker there tried to chat to me&boast old time firendship he had with the dog in the neighbor office of mine. and this morning just when i left the dorm to office, the only hometown folk of Hubei in QRRS, also a grey man, met me and tried to talk with me about hometown journey. they all likely had problem with their potent, and poisoning my life with their spying eyes which is blind in front of the Holy. got up at 7:17am and soon arrived office. posted tweets first, then hunt for resource to download. tried to update my google latitude but China surveillance heavily hampered the operation. also tried a new extension of google browser, chrome's, which blocked heavily by the surveillance. sorted portable after narrowly done it. my girl zhou again refused to walk alone the main road which passes my office in QRRS. the monitor, a dog, even God let me treat him a bit different from the facing evil for he also a graduate, bullied me by persuading me not to spit to the corridor, after i shown self-disciplined after the fury of the gay on facing desk and avoided to spit indoor. they all dogs whose common behavior is bully the silent. i retreated from office earlier, just after 2pm, for the cold of gays, ie. the deads, in office let me unconfortable. on the way check telcom's office, attempting to increase my cellphone wap's bonus pack, after my previous bundle, 10mb/month at 1rmb's cost turns insufficient after these nights i surfed via wap on bed. but unfortunately my cellphone's password missing, and i was suggested to go to the telcom's HQ in central town to handle password changing process. in dorm, enjoyed food&white wine bought last night. dinner was unpleasant, the evil owner of the canteen pretending talking to her contacts and sold me smelly belly meat without my consent. so i dined again in the restaurant near the cross road. leaving the restaurant, i doubting if i should roam alone the main road of QRRS, now that it was rush time of work over. i really eager to see my girl who hidden from me for so many days, but God let me retreat to dorm. surfed in dorm on cell. roamed outside again after 6:30pm, bought some pickles on way in the grocer shop yesterday haunted. baby buzzed in so we had a good time in air, that's the predecided.

my girl zhou, no matter how far u hidden from my searching sight, u r mine. God knows it, and u know it. let me have u, let me pick u. u will see the miracle exactly in my arms. every single cell in my blood, in my flesh, calling for u for family life, for pure joice i crying for u for so many years! u knew, Heaven knows. u had to be my life long wife, my 3rd wife, in my kingdom, in my Royal of China. that's out of debate.

Posted via email from birdous, angels at homeland. 天下羽帝。

busy monday. evil troubles me with anxious on men's problem.

  • Jan. 25th, 2010 at 3:53 PM
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26/1/2010
dreamed lots of alumni of middle school&campus. also dreamed worked with some QRRS colleagues. after woke up, dog's curse let me anxious awhile about my potent. since last night when i dined in the restaurant the evil against me on the topic: a couple whose family life turned a nightmare there asked another male friend to try to dissolve their family's coldness. a grey man once lived in QRRS dorm but a worker there tried to chat to me. and this morning when i left the dorm to office, the only hometown folk of Hubei, also a grey man, met me and tried to talk with me. they all likely had problem with their potent, and poisoning my life with their spying eyes. got up at 7:17am and soon arrived office.

25/1/2010
a full work load of monday.^last night heard preach in local church again. the preach talk about traps, strange dream&phenomena, i quite informed of my situation. a beautiful girl lingered there after the preach, let me doubting where is my girl zhou. buzzed baby son after returned dorm about my love to him. before went to church, tried to contact my Guangdong girl sally. bought food from a nearby grocery shop named black kid sister(黑妹), enjoyed near 9pm. woke up this morning aroud 7am. went to office around 8a. in office posting tweets. correct QRRS allowance for baby's kindergarten fee, with which first time the departmental clerk missed a month of that. read most time&hunting for resources to download. its a brilliant morning but sunshine turns weak at noon. i busy with clean irrelavant codes in my gmail's html signature. redesign family html signature in bookmarklet&backup, since noon. then baby's mom came over to fetch the returned allowance as we discussed. then sorted udisk, reformat&data migration, till 7pm finished, after many partitions dividing efforts failed. dined with beef pies&mutton soup. singing God name for the earlier descending of my girl in my life with new marriage.

Posted via email from birdous, angels at homeland. 天下羽帝。

tweet of 24/1/2010: burning hope beneath without smoke uprise.

  • Jan. 24th, 2010 at 5:24 PM
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post last blog/tweet on finance, recent photo to google maps. read within greader. fine turned family icq new profiles, with feeds. since 9am-3pm without break.
heard preach in local church again. the preach talk about traps of evil, strange dream&phenomena from God, i quite informed of my situation. a beautiful girl lingered there after the preach, let me doubting where is my girl zhou. buzzed baby son after returned dorm about my love to him. before went to church, tried to contact my Guangdong girl sally. bought food from a nearby grocery shop named black kid sister(黑妹), enjoyed near 9pm. woke up this morning aroud 7am. went to office around 8a.

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benzrad's daily tweets: Jan 20-23, 2010

  • Jan. 23rd, 2010 at 5:19 PM
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23/1/2010
To my girl zhou: about our new life.^in the after dinner roam, my heart weightened by girl's anxious about how to support my new life with the lifestyle we wished. God let me more cherished what my girl zhou bring to me, from a clean hand, forever. and to relieve my girl's burden of support my new life, God has it: Masheng, ur money, as well as Japan's finiancial power, is the only money on the world that's growing with lives. help my girl zhou to arrange our new life, including the new house, that we deserve under God's shine, decorate it with simple, romantic, and secure. rid us all evil of espionage. always lighten my girl with Holy spirit, rather anxious about so called reality problems. i will since my being under God's shine many years ago choose live in Spirit. my dearest girl zhou, pl lend me ur hands, let's step into our new life Heaven grants. u will be the finiancer of China Corporate, world will sees China's prosperous, but never leave lightning Spirit even in split of second; never let money win ur sight, which would never happen on u, my dearest. Tonight the bottomless sky has a half moon, the forever family friend of Ming dynasty. let's pray its clear and clean glows hallow our Royal of China. pure and plenty of China and its Royal.

22/1/2010
slept all day.^last night in music till 11pm. got  up till 4pm&dined out with beef pies and mutton soup. now surfing.

21/1/2010
dogs barked upon me.

20/1/2010
dined with baby son&his mom.^last night dined with baby son. a dog behind him tentatively poked baby's head when baby playing on his chair. kill the dog at once&told baby the death. Masheng, let ur special action squad do it, slaughter the dog insulting at once. got up lately after 8am. its again a bright day in brilliant sunshine. posted recent photos.

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Sun rerises as normal, but heart never sinks.

  • Jan. 20th, 2010 at 9:23 PM
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last night i treated my baby son and his mom as scheduled, after waiting my girl zhou in vain. she had left my sight for about more than 4 days, in which i sought wilderly. my heart turns hard upon her evading me, my memory fixed on the prime time when she strided in her white short coat and waving so loveable long legs. my girl zhou fiddles me with her hide-and-see, each time when i crying for pains in my heart in missing her, she winked like mirage in seconds just throw me more into her influence, and then dead silence. last night i waited to greet her in front of QRRS HQ as usual, then baby's mom buzzed in. we arranged meeting up under my office, when i waiting in chill on the place she once bought icecream with her colleague and we first eyes' contacted, she in her white coat which inspired me so much, arranged 2 men and a female walked arms in arms just to show me her tricky and naughty. after i gathered with baby son and his mom, after chilled outside for more than a quarter&trembled on the bus stop, the restaurant was full of customers. so i suggested going to my dorm to rest some time. baby there enjoyed a game i just got from web. when we returned to the restaurant, a tall girl with cordial face looked straight into us. she was palled with 2 men and a female. i felt she must has a link with my girl zhou, but i felt my girl should more gifted than her. so i joined the war with the half raw lamb steak at once, with small knife, chopsticks and my own teeth. 

after dinner, i hold baby son into the KFC Tiedong franchise, where a cop in uniform lingered there but don't eat but all time roaming, and also peeked when baby son played game on my notebook. when we dined in the restaurant serves fried mutton, a neighbor dog, a mature but young beast tentatively poked baby's head when baby don't eat and let by his mom to change to outer chair and played on the chair. baby son puzzled, but informed by the adversity. i at once told baby that's a dog, and life time task to kill dog, ie, cop, mafia, bureaucracy, for our family in title of zhu. i told baby the dog already dead, and God knows when its corpse disappear on the earth that belongs to us, in God's shine. in daily tweet of yesterday, i assigned the killing to Masheng, to her special force squad to accomplish the slaughter. nothing can lay a touch upon my Royal, the Royal of China as well as God's.

today its the second bright day since the shallow snow last weekends. blood had already spilt over the drought land over-crowded with ants and mice. God, i never enjoy killing except glory drives it aimlessly. killing in ur name is just a cake, funny but not meaningful. the only bright in my heart is my girls, my beloved. in every scent i can sniff, i track the veil and vein from my Queens in my Royal. God, let ur bright forever cover me, cover my heart fully. 

below is my daily tweets in this transitinal life:

20/1/2010

dined with baby son&his mom.^last night dined with baby son. a dog behind him tentatively poked baby's head when baby playing on his chair. kill the dog at once&told baby the death. Masheng, let ur special action squad do it, slaughter the dog insulting at once. got up lately after 8am. its again a bright day in brilliant sunshine. posted recent photos.

19/1/2010

dreamed of lunar new year.^dreamed of celebrating lunar new year with my girl, almost sexed but hold for my girl zhou as God lets. Its snowing in dawn, likely since last night but don't cover ground thick.

18/1/2010

busy day with baby's sites. missing my girl zhou again.^got up around 7am&went to office among crowd of QRRSers. fine tuned baby's profile. my girl don't appear in noon break. claimed&fine tuned baby's homepage on google sites in afternoon. gave up till near 5pm. went to receive my girl zhou, but again can't find her. treated myself with beaf pies&mutton soup in a restaurant near office after the monday. all night in dorm reviewing my love with my girl zhou.

17/1/2010

just refined my old blog at 163.com (http://benzillar.blog.163.com ) when last night God recalled it in front. got additional one for the predecided (http://bentchu.blog.163.com ). all done in God's shine.
Masheng, i hope i will marry my girl zhou before the lunar lantern Day. hope u can settle our trip to my hometown, where my folks will witness the glory of my dad and his son. pl join me sooner, as u know.
idle in the morning. launched at office to refined baby's sites, domain setup, Google apps setup, etc. finished after 5pm, then visit the local church&listening the preach. talked to the clerk after it over&expressed thanks. met a girl likely my girl zhou but with hairs reshaped. returned dorm baby let her mom buzzed in. its just so attending God shown. niece also tried to contact me to borrow money for her professional license, but later gave up.

From New Year on new horizon
From New Year on new horizon
From New Year on new horizon
From New Year on new horizon

for picasaweb blocked in China mainland, here parts of the photos hosted domestic.


proud dad and concentrated son.

baby son, warrenzh, whose domain at http://warozhu.com , posed with pride, in my dorm waiting to dine out. 

saint moment with white snow and blazing sunshine.

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love of father, love of son, love of girl: benzrad's tweet on 13/1/2010

  • Jan. 13th, 2010 at 3:18 PM
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sad dawn dream.got wired via QRRS.^in dawn dreamed of baby less happy with my living my new life, a bit part from him. God, never let me live apart from my baby son, God of Universe, lives me with live source from him within me, live us together forever in one. live us the hardest likes diamond in Trinity. got up at 7:33am, after wondered on bed in early wakeup. arrived office around 8am, QRRS' lan wire already installed, but ip await granting Internet access. visit the director&express obligation. read ebook of Germany philosophist Heidegger while waiting for Internet. got wired to Internet finally aroud 9:45am, now its my works to compliment delayed posts in these days waiting for new working environment in my QRRS office after got assurance from the high rank of QRRS. greet my girl zhou in noon break as usual but with especial new start, she also first time leaps when she passing my office on way returning to QRRS. nothing can express my thanks and being beloved from my girl zhou's envoy. i admire her sooooo much. surfed all time in office, fine tuned my 163 profile&homepage there. clear half of feeds that unread within my google reader. the dispisable China authority hacked google's server farm in Shanghai office&spying their patanted codes, threaten all Chinese google admirers now that google considering postphone their operation in China for evil in China mainland is against their corporate moral. shits! when gone the dirty and really freaky China authority? the numberable darks on the earth, likes shits that humiliate global civilization? yes, its my family's duty to overturn the dark and evil on the scarry land of China. its me and my family, Royal of China, to overtune the sick and ill mind of China as a periphery of my grand ancestor sice Ming Dynasty. left office on time at 3pm. roamed in dorm talking to my girl zhou, who want me picking her indifference her pose. dined on time at 4pm&went to receive my girl at once. its an early spring, as i was reminded when i jog in front of the QRRS headquarter, where hosts quite some evil eyes, likely including high ranks. there is no respct among the elder on China mainland, the dirty porter brewing any fresh into rotten&foul, except my God, my passed dad, the Founder of coming Ming dynasty lasts 1109 years. when its time for QRRSers leaving for home, a girl in white with similiar figure as my girl zhou attracted my sight for quite some time, let me doubting if my girl changed her coat mid way in afternoon and picked the other way as the alien girl chose. but i waited till the radio of QRRS broadcasting songs, of which the first one is a male singer sings misery of love, after finished news of QRRS, i was touched immediately&prepared missing my girl in the so likes unlucky dusk, but then my girl zhou, tearsbreakingly&weepswipingly beaming appeared, among her male colleagues. i stood till her was almost packed by those male QRRSer into a car, and haunted over and around till sure she left the mini-plaza of QRRS front gate by car. on the way in dark lamps, i murmured in heart, my dear, i never closer to u than this moment, for God let me show my wines of persistence, God shown me how u attending me, attending my appeal for u. on half way i originally tend to choose the half way i route between office&dorm, but God let me straight to the cross way and look out if my girl she left the car and drop me there herself alone first time. in office review the scene when i waiting for my girl in front of the QRRS HQ, reviewed my love with my girl zhou. haunted out on 6:30pm as Masheng lets, visiting the cross way my girl can appear. bought myself canned fruits, susage&wine on way to dorm. enjoyed the food&buzzed baby son to suggest them to him. he gladly allow me to buy him the food in next gathering. its so nice a day. i missing my girl so much! in this lonely night and this lonely room. God, don't i live in arms of my bride now? live now in my girl's dream tonight? don't i tear my beloved all night in every silent and single moment? don't i own the whole world of the continent thats beautiful? don't i m ur only son among the human? don't i talk with u in last night dream in ur Heaven, my hometown? don't i live with u, my dearest son, my grand passed dad, all u in one, as my own? God, don't u touched by my thanks with wilder joys in ur the Holy? don't u assure me and my followers mirage exactly in my arms? don't u laid bliss on every scent of my beloved girls, esp. my girl zhou's pillar? God, don't u picked the brightest star and decorated my girls' hairs with its starry? God, let me cry for ur love, cry for being in ur love, cry for the Heaven i saw and felt so far in the love of and with my girl zhou.

Posted via email from birdous, angels at homeland. 天下羽帝。

New year on new horizon.bleeding with hope and missing.

  • Jan. 9th, 2010 at 5:37 PM
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So many hopes of family and new family upon the new year of 2010. i will see my new marriage in the beginning of 2010, while baby son got his first International domain, warozhu.com, which now running with a simple but informative homepage based on my domain, be21zh.org. its all bright days, or white days in snowing, recently. i talk with my second wife, my Sun, from Janpanese Royal, in every pulse of coherent, while my forging blood bound with my girl zhou, for whom i searched on the web so long, and our new family turning clearer and sounding. new year of 2010, belongs to the Holy, belongs to the Royal of China in my title.

today again a new bright day, with so many hopes and missings loaded me bleeding. i look into the sunshine, sea's bubble wade and wax in my heart. i see my girl in praying for me, including my first wife, girl Lü, and the Taiwan girl, who will has my 3rd son, and girl Jiangyue. life with so many promises, from the Heaven, form God the Holy. life in moulding the new China and east Asia.
all of all, girls, come, come and join me, with the morning sunshine on her hairtop, with Heaven dews on ur lid, come, and come into new horizon under our steps. the world never more promising than we see it, than we say it. 


below is my daily tweets in this transitinal life:

9/1/2010

full of joy&hope.^last night busy in office sorting family sites in sidebar against China surveillance frequent blocking my logos on different hosts. slept lately after 10pm, for memory of such a great day. dreamed a school girl succeeded in college entrance exam with her firends. dreamed managed a restaurant in US&in China. dreamed of coming love even under cops' espionage. got up after 8am, and its a blazing bright morning again, with so many lucky fortunes ahead. roamed outside in the aim to meet my girl zhou. sms baby's mom who in last night's chat in low not to swing with rumors of me from dogs'. lunched outside with meat&pies. roamed again in bright sunshine, met a girl in her 16 years old or so with brilliant figure. missing my girl zhou very much. sorted family forum hosted on GAE in dorm, correcting titles&links, also in songs of Daolang, a western Chinese singer. some road cleaners, likely employed from suburb residents, made noise just under my window, while i recharged my cellphone. roamed outside after it finished, picked office to check manual to modify cell's lock key. really missing my girl zhou.

8/1/2010

my girl bullied me last night, but its a new gifting day today.^last night lingered in office surfing till 7pm, to avoid the bully my girl zhou exerts on me. the night on bed restlessly, sexual desire turns strong in dawn, woke up first time before 7am. waited in dorm till 8am. refined sites' images in office. dog in office turned agile&foamed of babbles, likely espionaged last night my girl zhou refusing me by picked a man's bike&left before i trying but unable to reach her. the another dog, the monitor, tentatively moved the empty chair to his close territory, trying to ban my using his corporate lan wire. but after all, its a bright morning&God's brilliant gift for me just to unveil. sorted recent photos&prepared upload. greeting my girl zhou in her colleagues' companion. she is just too bright in her white short coat, strides with her long legs. greet her again when she return to QRRS, too perfect to own her as God Holy shines me. felt constrained upon myself yearning for her, for i love her so much&need her in my arms so cravingly and so meanslessly, but after all again, my new marriage with her will commences soon in the beginning of 2010.

7/1/2010

a blessing day, with magpies croak over me.^finally baby's site, warozhu.com, running, and my site, be21zh.org, updated, with the help from Taiwan friend. also got the forum of the 2 domains working&refined, after so many errs in source code&blocking from China surveillance. its really a hopeful day, but missing my girl zhou in rush time of work over. i worked lately but managed in position in time to wait for my girl, a girl with the same coat&height mistakened me&likely my girl behind her passed when i retreat to roaming. bought a new basin, for the old one broken last night. fine tuned my cellphone. snowing night makes it a time to pray for saint love. God, kill dirts&evil rumors&loads of pressure around/on my girl zhou, let my love with my girl zhou grows&melting into peaceful&colorful&lasting full joys of family, let my girl in my arms&pulse together. 
help baby's granny fetching coupon from QRRS just after got up, for she lost the coupon first time trying to fetch. on the way some magpies croak over me. bought myself tea, a long time wanting, and taste it at once in office. the world all brightly white in last night's snow. read awhile in office. dogs there espionaged closely. the monitor long time in the morning absent, but just after i connected to web with his wire, he appeared&complained about unabled to connect at once as usual, likely informed by the gay on facing desk, trying to find a rent. the facing dog gamed online all time&bet death to challenge me. so call to the high rank in QRRS, about my Internet need&invited him to celebrate my new marriage. he let me dwell more with my girl to know each other better. missing my girl zhou in rush time of noon break. read newspaper to kill time while waiting the director to settle my corporate lan access, among the facing dog's heavy dirts. returned to dorms around 3pm, listening radio. dinned earlier to wait my girl zhou. she walked with her colleagues while i trying to follow her. first time closer to watch her, whose eyes clear&legs long&fit. later she went alone&look back to me, so i tried again to follow her, but she took a man's bike left. when i closely follow her, i felt so rich to own her. God, u never misleading me, i straightly ask u for my girl zhou i persued so long, i directly ask u leading me into my new life with my girl zhou, in the most romantic house in the world we will nest&make love that's saint&breathtaking. God, i m a determined mind, and never losing or dwelling in burning of shame any time any place, for my glory of Royal of China, exactly ur glory on the earth.

6/1/2010

a hopeful day.^last night met my girl zhou in QRRS rush time, follow her till cross road, peaceful&hopeful. then returned to office to contact Taiwan friend to upload source files to my family domains, ie. baby's warozhu.com and mine be21zh.org. dealt routine stuff. Its snowing all night, so auspicous. sms girl Feng in Guangdong. tried wap access my favorite portals on my new cellphone, went to bed after 10pm. went to office at once getting up. sorted os in office. met my girl zhou under my office where i talking with the department cadre for my missing coupon, tried but can't see clear my girl's face. customized baby&my 163 account with my cellphone authentication. refined forums of family domains. handed in fee for baby's kindergarten. finished updated family 2 domains' hosting via Taiwan friend.

5/1/2010

busy with fix my win7 on acer notebook.^last night met my girl zhou just under my office. the dog in the front office stared me when i waiting, so i shift to another place. my girl tentatively stopped by a icecream vendor aside the road, i picked up&first time closely watched her eyes. its almost our first direct eyes' contact. after she left, baby's mom, emakingir arrived to bring me my medcines. i had visited the hospital but it moved to a new place. so i adopted ema's suggestion several times to make use of medcines at her home. i bought it again from ema, costs me 200rmb as admitted. in dorm contacted my facebook girl who now in her hometown Guangdong, after sms her twice without response. emotional upon re-gaining her message. the dorm's porter, an old woman with her old husband washed in the toilet, the male beast even washed nakedly there when i heard the noise&went to wash clothes. dirts around in QRRS deserves a kill, which descends since last night&shallowly covered the ground this morning. i returned to baby's mom's house first time since my step into my new life, and busy with building bootable udisk, then restored os from backup. migrating data cost me about 3 hours, after last night i found all my works previously done, esp. data syn, all lost. baby was fetched to skate on ice with his first new skateshoes by his mom, who had a half day vacation. returned to office lately after 4pm.

4/1/2010

pc crashed when i copy to udisk. tried all kind of bootable disk but failed. got insult from a doggie gay in neighbor room for my borrow his notebook awhile to fix remission problem with my Taiwan friends who just got me my baby's domain, warozhu.com. killing snow since then.

3/1/2010

bought my first cellphone, &under clothing&showered near baby's mom's home.^last night restlessly, longing sex with my girl zhou. got up lately&heading to office immediately. retouched family sites while the 2 once colleagues staying in office. tried to upload to my domain registaar but failed again. then gathered with baby&his mom in supermarket, bought baby foods he likes, ate in KFC. then i finally first time buying my own cellphone. also bought under clothes&got showered&haircut. tried to remit Taiwan friend who help me getting baby's domain but out of service. Its so nice a day.

2/1/2010

finished logo design for warozhu.com, baby son's first domain.^last night busy with logo design till 10pm. this morning woke up by tractor's engine again. finally retouched the logo, with Chinese slogan. the haunted computer market to buy 8gb udisk, to prepare migrating acer notebook to my usage, while hasee notebook left to baby as he wanted. migrated data between notebook in office from 2pm-8pm. also prepared warren's site, but China surveillance blocked file upload all time. buzzed baby's mom&know the bonus from QRRS likely 7000rmb or so. bought another wine. some porn photos reminds me my girl zhou painfully.

1/1/2010

sound sleep. woke up in vital engine sound of a tractor outside.^last night thought awhile on bed, talking to baby son in heart. woke up around 8am. a porting tractor's healthy engine's pulse accompany reviewing some time on bed. preparing baby's site since then, based on my site of be21zh.org, design warozhu's logo. then join baby son&his mom at Golden Hans buffet, where i tried to fix acer notebook but all bootalbe udisk failed. great time with baby, let him know his domain. roamed after returned dorm, present 10rmb to a chair-bound man. review the problem with os on acer notebook. design baby's site's logo all time, finished it at 10pm.

31/12/2009

buy baby son his domain, warozhu.com, with help from Taiwan friend.^dreamed of a sportman in family name zhu. his sport is double swords. after his performance, i picked his swords he shot&returned to him. the dorm's door keeper, an old fat woman, behaved evil: last night she with an other woman washed clothes lately from 8pm-9pm, and this morning again did&made noise around 5am in the nearby lavatory of the dorm. such a dirt! busy contacting Taiwan friend to register baby son his first domain, warozhu.com, the second domain of our family. finished the deal till near 2pm. my girl zhou didn't appear in rush time. got several bonus from QRRS, my once&long time employer. busy with setup baby's new domain, as well as google apps in the domain near 5pm. met my girl on the way as usual, but really a surprise for her absence at noon rush time, when i doubting if she don't join office today. she peeked at me but lowered her sight when i contact her eyes&felt assertive. as a punishment she shorten the way with which i can follow or company her, but directly walked to the other way, separat me with a main&busy road of the city's entrance. hard to compel the high mood, but i managed to buzz baby&his mom till 7pm as usual, told them the bonus, gift for baby(but keep it a secret till tomorrow's gathering), got timetable of our dining out in Golden Hans buffet where we haunted last month&greatly enjoyed. roamed outside. tried to contact a homeless old man sheltered in a harmful corner near a electric station outside of the dorm area, but can't find him outside of his locked fence. its my second time trying to help him with some money but failed. the full moon tonight from my ancestor has the best wish upon me&my Royal in new year of 2010. prepared baby's site after settled in dorm.

30/12/2009

dreamed of Nankai alumni.^last night slept in peace&sound. dreamed played soccor in Nankai Univ with schoolmates, like Sunbo, wangbin, wenxiong, etc. later all about books&magic. care my girl zhou. live long to see through. post recent tweets in an b og entry to my blogs, including domestic blogs. finally touched my forums, including one at http://zh.be21zh.org, ie. correct google analystics&friends connect codes correspondingly. greet my girl zhou, who this time alone when leaving QRRS, while talking with 2 male QRRSers when route to QRRS. the monitor in office chat with me about my marrital statues&try to persuade me to retired now&return to my hometown. God sees how rubbish a man can be. read ebook on cyberwar. peaceful light in my life now&to come. girl zhou, hold me right now, right this auspicious moment God grants. roamed in dorm thinking family domain. met my girl zhou first time face to face, even obscure in street light, in peace. the corridor of dorm lights all 3 bulbs to welcome me&i do felt blessed. review my love in my girl zhou, then continued planning baby son's domain, all time in music.

From New Year on new horizon
From New Year on new horizon
From New Year on new horizon
From New Year on new horizon

for picasaweb blocked in China mainland, here parts of the photos hosted domestic.


benzrad, me, with baby son, warren zhu, in Qiqihar Golden Hans buffet.

baby son, warrenzh, whose domain at http://warozhu.com , dining in KFC Fu-mart franchise. 

baby son, warrenzh, on skating ice ground with his first new skateshoes.

Sent from Qiqihar, Heilongjiang, China

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  • Dec. 29th, 2009 at 7:31 PM
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29/12
dreamed a lot.^last night thought some time on bed before fell into sleep. dreamed of family, hometown folks, colleagues, alumni. also dreamed of many places. dreamed in my palace with a servant eat cookies for VIPs. got up urined then dozed till after 9am. in office dealt my GAE, with the forum's author's new direction, finished most apps&new forums' setup. my girl zhou first time holding a man's arms to urge me act. felt cold upon the changes. roamed around the front area of QRRS, first don't want to meet my girl, then God let me don't lose passion, so try to follow her, but don't find her in the rush float of QRRS staff. reviewed my situation in dorm, tried to contact the high rank in QRRS, a Zhou, twice for invoice the love between my girl&me, but can't connect neither his office nor home phone. God, help my girl zhou killing dirts around her, killing dogs blocking between us, not matter cops or mafia. Royal of China, in my title, forever sane, saint&untouchable beautiful. my new life with my girl zhou should descends in the beginning of 2010. God, reinforce me with love&do right immediate, blow away hatred&dark the evil try their best to horse me down.

28/12
my girl zhou turns playful.^dreamed of easy sex among my senior middle school alumni. fight for pure love&its sex. dreamed in dawn some ants eating bees, breaking their shells. dozed again after washed head. in office restored os. read awhile ebook on axis of evil: communism left in the world, among biting from facing dog. its a bright morning. greet my girl in rush time, she first time shown her proactive guesture after passed over my office. roamed some time to avoid dirty dog on facing desk. read awhile before return to dorm. immersed in an ebook on cyber war in dorm, till tired&dozed. felt lucky again upon my coming family with my girl zhou. waited her after dinner&follow her till cross road. praying God i can live with her sooner, i really love her, her figure this time i closely perceived. review my love for girl zhou after returned dorm&pray God let me in Heaven with a new family with my girl zhou sooner. buzzed baby's mother about dining out agenda, then roamed outside. met cop on the way. the evil plots detaining me in asylum or prison. bought 2 eggs&ate.

27/12
dreamed of sex with my girl zhou.^last night enjoyed music a lot. in dawn dreamed in my palace sex with my girl zhou, my other wives, one is likely Masheng, my second wife from Japan, and my baby son, also present. then dreamed a guy in the contest of driving electronic game, but his game controller bad, so i lent him my mouse or cellphone to control. bought socks&inner pants. continued to fix down forum of be21zh.org, failed again. try to contact the app's author. after lunch debug the app again in dorm till it works. returned to office to update the app online but it strangely don't work online. the facing dog soon visit office&stayed there all time when i busy debugging. at first the gay biting heavily, after i dealt with email from the author of the app, biting turns down. the dinner tasteless. in dorm gloomy attacted me. felt lonely. listen music in night. do personal care.

26/12
got up after 9am. dozed again till seeing bright sunshine outside. roamed some time outside. listen music&reveiw my love after lunch, dozed again for boring. doubting if QRRS reschedules so visit office. found office empty while neighbor depart all on duty. launched to fix my forum at http://forum.be21zh.org, where a wrongly created forum let homepage broken. posted daily tweet, failed fix the app&gave up till after 5pm. continued fix it in dorm by setup GAE&succeeded. reviewed my love in music. the half full moon clearly&serenely glows in mid sky.

25/12
the 5th snow, a heavy snow.^last night slept later in high mood. a bit restless on bed&fell into sleep lately. this morning woke up after 9:30am. dreamed of my wedding ceremony, but i seemingly not happy like should be, also don't familiar with my wife&peek her privately. dreamed Chinese force squad, ie. army&police, practised (cyberspace) dealing hajack in a large office tower, likely CCTV, herds of police equipped with pistols or guns, but just wait&track the man kidnapped a someone, in the countless rooms&corridors&stairs. its likely also an electronic war, for in the dream i strongly dispised the vomitting defensive attitude on Internet China sinful authority nowadays adopted. in office published recent photos with a blog entry expressing. greet my girl zhou, who walked alone under my office to assure me our saint private connection exists anytime&everytime, against in yesterday's rush time evil arranged trifle persons' attempting to mess up. busy with refined my forum, one of my google app engines, at http://forum.be21zh.org, in the afternoon, fine tuned page's template, correct google friend connect due to url remapping. the department gathered for lunch out, let me alone in office. the facing dog second day in serial lingered in office&darting poisons even in his vacation. it snows all day&covered ground thick. roamed outside the dorms area after 7pm, picked the crowd in the local church, where hosting a singing&dancing party for Jesus, almost wept with a song when review my love&missing for God&my girls, esp. girl zhou, who is praying for our fruit of love so sincerely. reviewed my love for baby son, God of Universe, and my girl zhou, my heart harden with blesses that our deep harmony in our coming marriage seeds more.

24/12
dreamed of George H. W. Bush.^last night dreamed with bless in songs. dreamed my elder brother. killing a tortoise by cutting its head twice with blade釬 when it stick out. look into the possible evil in elder brother's. dreamed in dawn accompanying George H. W. Bush in his election team. bush is a kind&easy man with lots of original ideas, while his wife manages lots of things. later seemingly i was in my own election team. got up lately near 9am. felt glad so many lucky things in my life ahead&can't help count days in exciting, like Spring festival in eyes of a child. read in office in the morning, saluted my girl in bright sunshine. busy with refining family 163 blogs, built groups within each family member's account, ie. IIDChina, faezrland, emagarten, warranzh. sorted stuff got from web&portable. got a bonus of ￥200 for the New Year's Day from QRRS. treat baby son&his mom with fried lamb leg as scheduled, such a great moment with baby son, never words can express the elation. snows killing since i ruturned to the dorm. i felt so contented, Dad, God. i finally got my white wine after waited for so many days. God blessed the world of good, as all sees, esp. those homeless and live poor, live them with hope&surprise, as i can do it myself.

23/12
dreamed of love. life in our own rhythm in central China on agenda.^last night went to bed on time for too eager for Thursday when i will treat baby son&his mom in nearby restaurant with fried lamb leg. in dawn dreamed of circus, my elder sister&2 kid brother(i had only one kid brother in fact. in dream the kid brother help to perform is a tall young man, likely the actor in recent Korea TV series in CCTV1) help. i urged to treat animals with kindness forever. its atmosphere is happy and love, seemingly my marriage is to forged&relatives all looking forward it. then dreamed in drama, ema's relative, a tall female, appears in it. its really a loving&touching night, for in dreams all emotion floats loves&best wishes. got up earlier, before 7:30am, too exciting these days for my new life ahead.
in office read feeds. then claimed family namespace with free first level domain in .tk. sorted bookmarks&portable. met my girl once, but for busy with the domain felt at a loss more or less when saluting my girl after passions last night. after dinner met my girl again near the front door of QRRS. trifle persons still puffing sands amid us, but i see clear my girl with me like a bud, a slim&tall bud with dews from Heaven on it, leaving me in our vested valley alone pursue her wind, color, dance, and perfume. God, i forever cherish my girl zhou's lean soul&cordiality in the life we bound since love dents our hearts. dogs in the dorm i now linger brought thick dirts, and foully smessy, but God see my girls' intact, in my title. arranged tomorrow's treat with baby&his mom. roamed again around, God let me arrange my new life after married my girl zhou, i definitely longing the strong sunshine in my hometown. and i missing my kid brother, who still fighting a rootless living in southern China with his family, very much. i would buy he&his family a new house in the county, Wuxue, or help he settle down in the city with a business, according his long time wish. i would like buy a new house in the small county city with my own family, too, enjoy the sunshine and clear seaons with plenty rains&thunderstorms. i also need refurnish house of my passed dad, God, Founder of new Empire of China, in the blessed mountain village, Zhudajiu.

22/12
dreams. joyful moment with my girl zhou.^last night went to bed earlier, just around 9pm. dreamed with some aged researching sand&underground water. dreamed on Lushang廬山, Jianxi Prov., China, likely with my spouse, on a bridge. research its missing lakes, villa of Jiangjieshi蔣介石 there, etc. those days also doubting where is my girl Lü, whose neaty&independent enchanted me a lot when she came over to emakingir's house for tutorial, and fight with ema for her hope to marry me&succeeded. she is my first wife that arrives later. her brewing of loving me for years in loneliness while so young wins respects from all my wives. posting tweet in office, refined geotagged photos. read within greader since then. my girl zhou again affirmed our love&her being blessed. gays in the office building, esp. the fake ganster who in fact a thin lamb or lame duck in neighbor room tried to dirt. snowing likely gathering to kill tonight. after dinner roamed&ran into rush time of QRRS, but don't see my girl in the crowd. the early serene moon and white snowflakes falling all around really too beautiful. especially felt auspicious tonight, which snowing. Masheng, closer to me&let's enjoy family life earlier, let it starts with my new life in the beginning of 2010, if u r ready. promised me never leave me alone in ur soul nor physically. i love u&thankful, God sees. i wouldn't let u alone care our first son, my second son, nor with our other 2 sons when we both in mid age&thanksful&perceptive, years only adds wise&lean soul, no change in ur forever young beauty. just coming into my reach. and BTW, how is u now with baby son, warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe? this night we stay together, and should so forever.
all night listening music, and retrospect my love.

21/12
dreamed of hometown.^last night the corridor's lamps all can't light up. strange persons&sounds in the dark floor. in dawn dreamed returning to hometown, where hosts celebrating banquet for me. dreamed of shitting. posted recent photos&refined my google maps, posted recent lengthy tweets to blogs. seeing my girl zhou's encourages for me in rush time, really inspiring! read feed&tried some tips in it. baby's mom buzzed in at noon, i persuade her not to come over to hand in momey for my life settled well&she accepted. reviewed my love history&deeply touched by the being blessed. God, sees me&my prayer.

20/12
dreamed of baby son.^late sleep. dreamed of freaky hooligans, who kidnapped travelers in Shangdong by pretending railway station staff. the victims in heavy rains forced to believe in the freaks. baby son in later dream&signed me to notice spies outside of the door. for sunshine really bright so haunted around&shot some photo for QRRS' stylish buildings, sorted them after returned dorm. dozed after lunch, dreamed of almost sex with baby's mother, but stopped by spying eyes. then dreamed of God, my dad, asked him to save my girl, girl zhou or ema. all night staying room reveiwing my situation.

19/12
sound sleep.^last night first time changed my dose&it worked well. i got up till 10:30am. dozed again after lunch, dreamed of gain large fortune&met my sister in hometown. dreamed chosen to act as referee in sports game&trained in contest. all afternoon in dozed. roamed around the dorm area after dinner&felt misery in chill of wind. stay in dorm all night, nor buzz baby to avoid freaky surveillance.

18/12
Dad's memory day.^Today is the day dad pasted me for 3 years. last night i check my site for him. dreamed preparing English exam. in dawn dreamed help my once dempartment before it broke into now 2 parts designing its magzine. dreamed sorting porn video disks. last night slept soon$sound. since last night i had comsumed all of one kind of pills, only left another pills for my dose. its a brilliant morning. in office clear recent feeds of google services update&IT news. tried lots of chrome extensions. sorted portable suite with updates esp. those extensions. my girl missing in rush time. the department director told me aid from QRRS amounts to ￥500&coming later. haunted community free cafe again. the only pc installed deepfreeze software left to me, strangely unlike other pcs in China nowadays Internet cafe, don't auto restore on power on. heavily been hacked, ie. remotely controlled. check my google maps&other family sites. buzzed baby's mom&refused her suggestion to take over my old medcines there. let baby son known his grandpa's anniversary&he nodded it. reviewed for 2 hours after return dorm the evil China surveillance&dogs cast on me&shocked. killing all the old dirty stuff on this freaky land is badly needed for a new China.

17/12
dreamed of infant baby son.^last night It started to snow to kill dirts. tried again posting daily tweet in unsafe cafe, by posting to my forum at http://forum.be21zh.org ,where allows posting anonymously&denying delete. met the canteen's owner&talked about my blessed fate&my new wife. a male dog there heavily profaned. slept later for preparing feeds reader for mobile environment. dogs' biting let me restlessly awhile. dreamed hometown gathering, where a once neighbor wife chatted with me. got up&dozed again. dreamed in dawn baby son when he is infant. heartbroken love for him for he is so little&young. regret since last night for i talked to his mom 2 days but didn't call him. regret turns strong&buzzed ema&baby when they visit clinic to fix baby's pested teech but unable to talk for noise there. the monitor told me the facing guy these days in his vacation. so i can adopt the lan wire he previously occupied. all afternoon then stay online to prepare mobile working space, ie. portable chrome with my bookmarks, my subscription reader, backup them to web drive&online office. also posted delayed tweets&calendar events. surfed in community free cafe after buzzed baby son. dogs in China surveillance hacked me face by face, using batch to xcopy my portable suite after i plug my udisk, deleted my browser's personal settings seconds after i unpacked it to hard disk from my udisk, all this likely just shown their spying tools' power, for the long history of tracking my web traffic got them most of my confidentials, with which I also do my best to set them open&universal accessible. google China also shown my web id listed in filtered contents. when i left, snow killing as it did last night.

16/12
updated my status in turbulence. dreamed join American army in US.^China surveillance upon me turns freaky. the office dogs seated just after i arrived. i at once tried to use the monitor's corporate lan to update my twitter, but soon broke twice for the leaving and returning monitor, who later made lots of complains that after my unplug his lan wire, he can't reconnect to the web after rejoin the lan. God sees how the demon tentatively made the unusual problem happen on his pc (it never happen on my notebook). busy with finishing scheduled task, including creating a new flick group for my namespace, IIDChina, so missed saluting to my girl Zhou in QRRS rush time, but caught her in the rush time of beginning of afternoon. she walked alone the other lane, showing reservation on me. God, i never want conflicts in my rest marriages. i deserves peace and deep harmony between my partners and me from now on, for ur glory uncomparable on the earth.
dined early to prepare to salute my girl zhou, but dogs plotting to trap me in sexual infamous. so sheered back to dorm. haunted awhile the community free cafe. baby's mother, emakingir, asked me to help refined her course demo's video.
dreamed joined American army with a brother or pal. on the train or queue toward frontline. and life after retired, with my family, likely including my wife and son in US.
refined portable suite. the department director invited to talk, urging me now first receive my old family's aid before the applied aid from QRRS arrive. reveals as i talk my girl appears in QRRS rush time&my treating the high rank of QRRS, a Zhou, whom i asked to borrow ￥3000 the day i rejoin QRRS' dorm, as my father-in-law. reveals i was basically a Christian. idle all time in office. ema later told me in phone she got her edited video. review my being blessed in dorm alone.

15/12
post recent blog. first time met my girl zhou on the ground.^Its a brilliant day. post blog wrote yesterday in office in a breeze, with all photos from our treat in KFC Tiedong franchise. in dorm review my love with girl Masheng, zhou, the Taiwan girl. dined near QRRS' over time then roamed alone its main road, met girl Zhou just under my office, follow her and her pals till she departed all&enter the lane she likely residents. praying God not a too embarrassing nor zigzag course before we got wired under a same roof. God, i totally under her charm, and got me her arms around me the sooner the better. watched Yangge collective dance after dinner on the square of QRRS, its beauty grasped me at once. female's tendering touch me in any vein or visional method when i was stopped. woke up early, about 5am, dreamed in a camp with a mother, likely girl Zhou, with her daughter. i was with my baby son. we tried to correct our babies.

14/12
reveiw my pastime with Masheng in music of Daolang.^most day idle. trying to use the community free cafe but sucked by the stupid&evil door keeper woman. dozed for more than 1 hours after noon as last weekend, then wrote a blog about my ordain. review my love&those pecular moments with Masheng in Nankai Univ when i there persue a master degree, with touching music by Daolang刀郎, a western China muscian. tried again to use community cafe, but found dogs surveillance me on every presence, and plotted detailedly to defame me in losing. God shown me every device&trap. killing dog is the persistant job for my family&I should never forget it.

13/12
tried to make use of community free Internet cafe to prepare posting photos but failed.^last day busy with preparing a portable suite to work on free Internet hub within QRRS dorms, where all pc heavily infected with malware&spyware. tried it after dinner, almost succeeded but backup data wrongly so most works lost. dreamed war fire and holy message that with endurance&persistence all things&disconfort runs straight. later dreamed caring baby son, urging him to put on shoes to leave, but he playful till his mom arriving. we watched an aged practising calligraphy, which likes dao道 (means way in English) but with differences.

12/12
posted a blog with photo for 4th snow&Masheng's descending last afternoon.^shot snow scene on way to office. Its likely the thickest snow of 2009. posted these photos with a blog entry to my blogs. ema came over to settle bank stuff, ie. destroy my old salary account, deposit for baby monthly. for clerk said now an account with 2 withdraw methods (a card&a book) not supported, i gave up holding the credit card&left it baby's mother. such a maverallous time in KFC franchise. lots of shots. first time i bought family suite of fried chiecken. check posting in night in dorms open cafe. this morning dreamed of fans of popstar, like Korean or Chinese, like Guohan郭韓. we with their agency in a room underground. also fight with some kids likely including the baby girl in KFC franchise yesterday. preparing portable suite now for mobile working space. dozed first time on bed after noon, dreamed a kid girl accompany me for a long time in tunnel. my second baby would be a daughter with girl Zhou. my 3rd son is one of the fruits with the Taiwan girl, in my 4th marriage which forged for us by my dad himself.

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dreamed of love. life in our own rhythm in central China on agenda.

  • Dec. 23rd, 2009 at 5:36 PM
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last night went to bed on time for too eager for Thursday when i will treat baby son&his mom in nearby restaurant with fried lamb leg. in dawn dreamed of circus, my elder sister&2 kid brother(i had only one kid brother in fact. in dream the kid brother help to perform is a tall young man, likely the actor in recent Korea TV series in CCTV1) help. i urged to treat animals with kindness forever. its atmosphere is happy and love, seemingly my marriage is to forged&relatives all looking forward it. then dreamed in drama, ema's relative, a tall female, appears in it. its really a loving&touching night, for in dreams all emotion floats loves&best wishes. got up earlier, before 7:30am, too exciting these days for my new life ahead.
in office read feeds. then claimed family namespace with free first level domain in .tk. sorted bookmarks&portable. met my girl once, but for busy with the domain felt at a loss more or less when saluting my girl after passions last night. after dinner met my girl again near the front door of QRRS. trifle persons still puffing sands amid us, but i see clear my girl with me like a bud, a slim&tall bud with dews from Heaven on it, leaving me in our vested valley alone pursue her wind, color, dance, and perfume. God, i forever cherish my girl zhou's lean soul&cordiality in the life we bound since love dents our hearts. dogs in the dorm i now linger brought thick dirts, and foully smessy, but God see my girls' intact, in my title. arranged tomorrow's treat with baby&his mom. roamed again around, God let me arrange my new life after married my girl zhou, i definitely longing the strong sunshine in my hometown. and i missing my kid brother, who still fighting a rootless living in southern China with his family, very much. i would buy he&his family a new house in the county, Wuxue, or help he settle down in the city with a business, according his long time wish. i would like buy a new house in the small county city with my own family, too, enjoy the sunshine and clear seaons with plenty rains&thunderstorms. i also need refurnish house of my passed dad, God, Founder of new Empire of China, in the blessed mountain village, Zhudajiu.

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first step toward growing Royal of China.

  • Dec. 13th, 2009 at 5:44 PM
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these days in hell. after i bought some grocer and 2 meals, i turned penniless. the high rank in QRRS, my once and long time employer, promised to apply for me some aid from the company, upon i asked his lending of ￥3000, for he honors the same family name, Zhou, as my 3rd wife, my girl Zhou. today likely the 3rd day i live without a coin. lunch and dinner were borrowed, complains turning thick now. and mafia, which thick on this dirty land, smells lure and turns agile. meaningless persons spit me, likes the mouse turn herds and active before earthquake. my blogging also threatened, for i can't find socket to connect to the web. the room i was settled was bare, no cable TV, no adsl. even there i can't find a desk or bench to write on my notebook. there is 3 dorms in the company, my first night after left baby's mother's house was slept in dorm 2, where lan, adsl, cable TV, all equipped, but i was just rearranged to the prison alike room 214 in dorm 3, after the department i once worked brought me together to contact with the administrator of the dorms. the bullhead of the admin defied my request to stay in dorm 2 definitely, flies can darken the sky.
  
Today its a brilliant day. the sunshine after 2 snow days turns clear and clean, since dawn. i envisaged my finance support from my Empire of China, as well as from Japanese Ministry of Reservation, both bulky and consistent arriving, the world of God's Son never deficit nor arid. dog's interference long time before 2 weeks ago broke through and the channel of resources under my total commanding, also under commanding of my God, my Sun, my Japanese Princess, my Crowned Queen, Masheng. This is my command now. i need living support, including resettlement fund to equip myself new mobile, shaver, white wine, clothing, and all things smoothing my lingering here toward my new marriage around this year end, with my girl Zhou. Masheng sees it, and acts with full author and authority. if Masheng think our marriage ripe, i can live with her, my second wife and Crowned Queen of China, in Japan for some years. I love Japan, that needless to say.

last afternoon i traveled Heaven, with my God, my dearest baby son, and his mother, emakingir. its our first gathering since my step into my growing Royal of China. baby son had several times in weak tone when i buzzed in and talked to him before the event. in the afternoon i see with greatest sure the brightest future of my mission on the earth, my reclaim of my Empire of China, brings definitely perfect solution in the end, with positive echoes all around on the planet. i see definitely the shine of God, in Heaven, in the tiny KFC franchise where my first family treat themselves for the first real name remission from my girl Masheng. life bound with Japan, Taiwan, and the transitional administration of China forged stronger than ever.

Today likely a faultless day. with so many kills at once the offensive. with so many dead to death. i ever eager to look forward the New Year's Day when i will treat baby son, warren zhu, Hope of China, God of Universe, with western style toast in Golden Hans buffet we haunted once. i also looking forward to my 3rd marriage with my girl Zhou appeared so many times in QRRS rush time. i really really can't wait to see all my beloved girls. my new life has to commence in the beginning of 2010.

God, in ur glory and in ur shine, i thank u for such a splendid day today.
From first step toward growing the Royal
From first step toward growing the Royal
From first step toward growing the Royal

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4th snow of 2009, reunited with Masheng and our family.

  • Dec. 10th, 2009 at 9:13 PM
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these days i saw my new marriage closer to my new life, with my girl Zhou i searched in cyberspace for so many years now appears in my once working unit. but my eyes always open for my second wife, my Japanese princess, my God and my Sun, my breeze and my own exact. now i sensed my crowned Queen, my girl accompany me emotionally longest since our firt gathering in Nankai Univ back to 1999 or so. its a tie since our ancestor, as to me, since my past dad, and since my grand ancestor, the Emperor and Founder of Ming Dynasty, Zhu Yuanzhang. Its a tie forwarding to the future of the two nations, facing to the future of global climax, and global of tribal and race, global of God.

Its also an emotional moment with our love and beloved, esp. our baby son, warrenzh, who is so cute and countless profound, who is so fragile in his temper, and so brilliant in his beams. most of most, now he under his 2 mothers' attending, and never a motherhood can compare to Masheng's care and love. i pray God not too soon to let baby son picks his agenda or task list. the world of God too perfect to improve, he but should be more enduring, more resilient, and more hard and long lives in far less perfect worldly routines like his grandpa and his father, me. we had to be the last, to save or to check out.

this afternoon, a normal weekend, we will see our baby son in KFC, baby's favorite. i will reinforced by baby's beam. God, never a treasure can compare to my baby son's laugh, never a redemption can return the worth of my God, my dad's humor in lighthearted. God, let my baby see my new life with more freedom and pleasure! that's sure ur glory prevailing. Masheng, live with me now, from now and forever!!

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4th snow of 2009, reunited with Masheng and our family.

  • Dec. 10th, 2009 at 9:08 PM
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these days i saw my new marriage closer to my new life, with my girl Zhou i searched in cyberspace for so many years now appears in my once working unit. but my eyes always open for my second wife, my Japanese princess, my God and my Sun, my breeze and my own exact. now i sensed my crowned Queen, my girl accompany me emotionally longest since our firt gathering in Nankai Univ back to 1999 or so. its a tie since our ancestor, as to me, since my past dad, and since my grand ancestor, the Emperor and Founder of Ming Dynasty, Zhu Yuanzhang. Its a tie forwarding to the future of the two nations, facing to the future of global climax, and global of tribal and race, global of God.

Its also an emotional moment with our love and beloved, esp. our baby son, warrenzh, who is so cute and countless profound, who is so fragile in his temper, and so brilliant in his beams. most of most, now he under his 2 mothers' attending, and never a motherhood can compare to Masheng's care and love. i pray God not too soon to let baby son picks his agenda or task list. the world of God too perfect to improve, he but should be more enduring, more resilient, and more hard and long lives in far less perfect worldly routines like his grandpa and his father, benzrad, me. we had to be the last, to save or to check out.

this afternoon, a normal weekend, we will see our baby son in KFC, baby's favorite. i will reinforced by baby's beam. God, never a treasure can compare to my baby son's laugh, never a redemption can return the worth of my God, my dad's humor in lighthearted. God, let my baby see my new life with more freedom and pleasure! that's sure ur glory prevailing. Masheng, live with me now, from now and forever!!

From 4th snow of 2009, Masheng reunites with me&our family
From 4th snow of 2009, Masheng reunites with me&our family

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read. taught baby a lesson.

  • Dec. 5th, 2009 at 1:44 PM
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read most of time, except gamed awhile on "modern war 2" with baby. baby played pc game with his visiting cousin after got up from noon doze. the night the house dirt by dog students of ema. baby's penis itch&tried to self-satisfied. so burst to teach him&his mom a lesson. urged baby to notice evil around&upon him, urged him to love beauty&dignity or noble.

dream of killing snakes.

  • Dec. 5th, 2009 at 1:32 AM
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dream of gathering with my borthers&sisters. designed robot to kill lots of snakes in a tunnel. ema cooked needle to fed baby while i favored eating bread.

saint day.

  • Dec. 4th, 2009 at 8:17 AM
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it snowed last night but stopped in morning. saluted to my girl zhou in rush time of QRRS, but missed her when i haunted baby's kindergarten to hand in fee, but caught sight of her passing cross. read the ebook on Taiwanese democratic process these years. the monitor monitored me at noon in office, in break of QRRS schedule, while the dog on facing desk relayed to spy&bite in afternoon. when i left it snowing. met cops outside twice. bought baby KFC food.

read another ebook about Taiwan democracy process. blessed in Holy message.

  • Dec. 3rd, 2009 at 8:20 AM
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read after got up. sort stuff in office before lunch. saluted to my girl Zhou. Holy message consoles me with the gloomy day light, that my Japanese wife, my Queen in crown, in tender&well in fit. my girl Zhou shows me her special cares, waves a rounder trip near my window to allow my heart&eyes longer on her, in rush time. read democratic process in Taiwan in afternoon&enjoyed. the 3rd snow of 2009 in anticipation.

dreamed of barrack

  • Dec. 3rd, 2009 at 1:35 AM
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dreamed visiting barracks twice, to send a message. gays in barracks tried to hide something from me. later saw countless tiny bugs on desk from inner of something after i cracked it. its a warm morning sunshine.

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